[DA 15th\Storytime] A Rough Start

So, DA's 15th birthday. Since I have to be different, instead of a journal, I'd rather tell a story. However, before I tell it, I need to tell a bit about my personality. I am an optimist, to the extreme; Even at the darkest of times, I still find a light. I can put the reason like this: If I wasn't like this, I'd have actually gone through with my suicide attempts. Yeah.

    Back in 2007, barely in middle school, I went through the "emo" phase in life. I say it in quotes, because unlike everyone else that went through it, I had a reason. I was constantly bullied by my classmates, and never fit in. It also didn't help how abusive my father was being, to the point he threw my brother out of the house, leaving me to fend him off on my own. It just felt like the world just wanted me down. I barely spoke to anyone, and kept to my studies, but like most schools, false rumors spread. Only place I could find peace, was my room, and my computer, which functioned as my way to see the world.

    Month's later, I was on my sanity's last leg. I wanted out; Out of life, out of the pain, out of the eyes of the world. I think the only thing I'm thankful for at that age, was being horrible at killing myself. I gave myself multiple lacerations, attempting to just bleed out, tried suffocating myself via car exhaust, and drowning myself. Of course, they didn't work, due the incompetence of a 13-year old. 

    It was then, I discovered DA. It wasn't intention stumbling here, as I got here via Gaia Online. I saw everything people was posting, and was rather awestruck.From people doing landscape paintings, to just the simple OCs, and stuff. I wanted in, so I made an account. However...I never did post. I did start drawing, but I was too shy to start posting (As you can tell, I didn't post until 2010, but those were older works.). I discovered how I could convert my tension into art. Just all my frustrations going away when I put my pencil on the paper. It's just good stress relief. It got even better, come 2010, when I did start posting. I didn't expect people to actually like what I did, but it happened. It was then, I met Zero, and my story truely came to be.

    I'm not saying DA stopped me from commiting suicide; The suicidal tendencies still exist, even to this day. I'm saying DA gave me a purpose; A reason to fight. It gave me that little extra grip I needed to make it out of the dark, and this is something I'll never forget.

    And since people will not shut up about Core, I'll say this:

1. Other sites now exist. If you don't like what they're doing, and are too lazy to try and make a change, you can leave. I'm alright with the prices, for reason 2.
2. I've spent $1,000+, in TF2 alone. I think I can manage $50 a year, even with bills, rent, and other payments.